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Welcome Home, Everly

Our third child, Everly Virginia Palmer, was born on May 29, 2019 weighing in at 7lbs 11oz and measuring 20in long.

Nothing could have prepared us for what happened next. On Thursday, May 30th we brought home our perfectly healthy baby, and then had to hand her back to doctors just over a week later. 

Everly was discharged from the hospital the day after her birth with slight jaundice, but we noticed her skin tone continued to yellow over the next week. She didn’t display any other concerning symptoms – she was alert and happy, eating well, and having good diaper output. But someone somewhere was looking out for us, and my gut told me she needed to be seen before her next appointment which wasn’t until Wednesday, June 12. I took her into her pediatrician for a walk in weight check on Friday afternoon and asked about her coloring. They changed the weight check to a sick visit and a nurse practitioner evaluated her and suggested we go to the emergency room since they couldn’t get labs back before the weekend. At this point, it felt like a mild but necessary inconvenience. Kevin and I drove her straight up to the children’s hospital in St. Pete. We didn’t have to wait long before being taken back to a private room. Her nurse told us they’d need to put in an IV to extract blood to check her bilirubin levels (this is what causes jaundice). At that point, we thought that would be hardest part. We were so wrong. 

It took about an hour for her results to come back. Once they did, we were told they were “pretty high” and the NICU team would be coming soon to take her upstairs. When I nursed her and held her before handing her over, I had no clue I wouldn’t get hold her again for nearly 15 hours, or nurse her for over 30.

When we got up to the NICU there were probably a dozen people waiting for her. There were 3 doctors, including a woman who we can only describe as her fairy godmother – Dr. McCarthy. She told us her bilirubin level was 31, which is dangerously high and we needed to get it down as quickly as possible. They begin to worry about brain damage with levels higher than 20, and we were well beyond that point. She needed a blood transfusion immediately. They prepped her quickly and miraculously, Dr. McCarthy was able to get an arterial line through her umbilical cord (which had already fallen off days prior), which is practically unheard of for a 9 day old baby. The alternative would have been to surgically open a vein. We were immediately reassured by her skills that we were in good hands. There are not adequate words to thank a person for literally saving your child’s life.

That first night was a whirlwind. She had two blood exchanges (where doctors literally pumped her blood out of her body while simultaneously pumping donor blood in). The first exchange was just red blood cells (the blood product they were able to get from the blood bank quickest), and the second was whole blood. After the transfusion, she was laid on a UV light blanket, and placed under two overhead lights to begin phototherapy. By Saturday morning her bilirubin level was down to 9. It spiked back up a few hours later to 14, but we have seen nothing but a downward trend since.

Over the weekend they ran dozens and dozens of tests, she had to have 2 additional blood transfusions, 3 IV lines, x-rays, EKG, a (failed) spinal tap, antibiotics, antivirals, and continuous light therapy. All of this meant we weren’t able to hold her and I wasn’t able to nurse her while we waited to find the cause of her hyper bilirubinenemia. Spoiler alert: we still don’t know why this happened.

We had no idea how close we were to losing her completely. But our girl is stronger and feistier than we even realized. We have faced the unimaginable together, and together we can do anything. 

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Anna | Senior

The senior year of high school can be quite overwhelming for many students. It’s when all the prep-work of the last 12 years collides with the prospects of the future. But Anna, we chose to celebrate exactly who she is right now by showcasing a few of her favorite things; the things that make her, well, her. Those favorite things look a little bit like this:

Surrounded  by stacks of books at the Palmetto Library, where she spends her free time volunteering. We were sure to feature a few of her favorites!

We followed up our library trip with a visit across the street to the Historic Park, where her grandmother helped preserve an historic Florida bungalow. It was the perfect backdrop to recreate a few family photos of her grandmother.

Anna also played tribute to her favorite Doctor! Her look was complete with the signature Doctor bowtie and sonic screwdriver.

We captured some beautiful nature inspired images at Emerson Point Preserve, soaking in the last bit of the warm weather and Florida sun.

But, if I’m being honest, the highlight of Anna’s session was taking Harry Potter themed photos at the South Florida Railroad Museum. Her Ravenclaw school uniform, acceptance letter, wand, and trunk were the perfect props to really make these photos extra special.

To put it simply, Anna’s photos turned out magical.

Anna – as you enter this next chapter of your own life, I hope you always find the magic in yourself. We may have just met briefly, but I know you will do great things!

Parenting, Personal

Preschool: This is How It Starts

Today, I took you to school for the first time. I was nervous about how you would do. Would you protest when I tried to leave without you? Would you cry when I was no longer in your eyesight? Will you make friends, be kind, and always try your best? (Spoiler alert: you did great!)

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The thought of sending you off into the world is crushing. But each moment since we brought you home has inched us closer and closer to this. From here on out you will need me less than you did the day before. But I know you’re ready, even if I’m not. After spending every day together for the last three years, what parent could ever truly be ready for this?

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I’ve learned that while you may feel like you’re mine, the truth is that you never really were. You are meant to be shared with the world, to be your own unique person with dreams that far exceed any dreams I could ever possibly have for you.

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So on this day as I leave you in a classroom for the very first time, I promise you I will always be your home base. I will always be in your corner. And I will always believe in you.

Loving you is the easiest thing in the world.

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Signs from Those We Love

Do you believe in “signs”? Like the kind that are sent from up above, the universe, or loved ones who have passed?

I do, and now I have proof.

Two weeks ago we set out on a family vacation to visit my parents new home in South Carolina, but it unexpectedly turned into a cross-country road trip when my grandfather suddenly passed away. We knew he was sick; he had been diagnosed with pancreatic cancer the week before, but none of us expected him to leave us so quickly.

Prior to the news, we went about our trip as normal, surrounding ourselves with the ones we love as we knew he would have wanted.

It was in our final day exploring Charleston that we drove past a restaurant with a literal sign that can only be described as serendipitous.

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You see, my grandfather was always called “Paw Paw”. And we saw this sign on the last day that he was alive. It was like he was there, smiling with us and approving of our little adventure of making memories and loving one another. He passed early the next morning, and we hopped in to the car and drove the 11 hours to Ohio.

Life is unexpected, and difficult. But it is full of beauty when you’re patient enough to look for it, and I’ll always keep looking.

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Barber Family | Summer 2018

This lovely family’s home is nestled against one of Florida’s beautiful nature preservation areas. Believe it or not, this stunning backdrop is in their very own backyard!

Big brother Braden is as sweet as can be, and you can tell he adores his little brother and has taken on the role of protector and teacher. Speaking from experience, there’s nothing quite like the bond between a mother and her son. The way he looks at her just melts my heart! But he was great at posing for the camera all on his own!

Sometimes it take a bit for the little ones to warm up to the camera. But when they do, it sure is worth the wait! And that couldn’t be more true for Mr. Colton.

Since Braden is so good with Colton, we were able to get some beautiful shots of mom and dad – Stephanie and Danny!

Such a sweet and happy family that a was an absolute joy to photograph. What a dream!

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Dunaway Family | Summer 2018

Let me just start by saying: this boy mom was in heaven with this family with five girls! The tulle, the twirls, the curtsies – these girls pulled out all the stops to give me my little lady fix!

Despite the heat, these sweet sisters were down to cuddle up and love on their newest addition: baby Cecelia!

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Aren’t her eyes just out of this world?!

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The bond between these beautiful girls was incredible, and speaks to the amazing job their parents have done in creating a playful, warm, and loving blended family. It was a such a joy to witness and capture in photos.

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Revange Family | Summer 2018

This beautiful family was such a delight to photograph! The green palms, and Spanish moss made for a breathtaking backdrop to showcase exactly what life in Florida is all about: scenic beauty, love, and family. And Tyree and Mikerra have got it all!

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Kyra, 9, was a natural in front of the camera and her mega-watt smile is even more contagious in person!

Nia, 2, needed a little more coaxing. But luckily her mommy brought along some candy as a reward and before we new it she was cheesing it up for the camera.

Above all else, I was blown away by the love within this family. It’s the kind of devotion you can just feel by being near them and it was such a joy to witness and capture in their family photos.

 

In-Home Session

Jacob | 3 Months New

The Jones’ family was so kind to welcome me into their home for 3 month lifestyle shoot. It was an absolute joy to photograph their adorable baby boy, Jacob! Jacob is such a sweet and happy baby, and he gave me lots of big smiles, goofy expressions, and sweet gazes.

But he was clearly most fond of being held looking over his parents’ shoulders.

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Jacob’s nursery was an adorable woodland and lumberjack theme. The tiny details were so precious and the family proudly showcased greeting cards, stuffed animals, and other precious mementos.

At 3 months, Jacob is in the sweet spot where he’s not-quite-a-newborn, but he hasn’t mastered the skills of tummy-time and sitting up. We thought this was the perfect time to try out this sweet Moses basket to get some shots of him lying on his back. Jacob looked like a living doll!

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Jacob was a dream to photograph, and we had such a great time!

 

Parenting

When Your BFFs are Women You’ve Never Even Met

New motherhood is a blur; a whirlwind of joy, doubts, triumphs, and fears. They say it takes a village. But for most millennial women, that village is a virtual one.

Nearly every mom I meet references their baby group in conversation, and to the generations above and below us, it may sound crazy, pathetic even. That one would have to turn to strangers on the internet for advice on raising your child. But, I can say from first hand experience that I am the mother I am today in part because of an online group of women, many of whom I have never met in person.

I stumbled across the posting on The Bump for a Facebook group specific to the birth month of my first son, Calvin: May 2015. At this point, he was about a month old. I hadn’t gathered the courage to even leave the house on my own, and in this posting I saw an opportunity to connect with other new moms who may be in the same boat. The rest is history.

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We’ve shared the joys of each of our children’s milestones together – first steps, first words, first days of preschool; the heartache of illness, injuries, and diagnoses we didn’t quite expect. We’ve celebrated the news of positive pregnancy tests, mourned the babies we hold in our hearts instead of our arms, and wished and hoped and prayed with all we have for those who face the uncertainty of infertility.

We’ve coordinated meal deliveries when tragedy struck. We’ve gifted keepsakes to honor the angel babies amongst us. We’ve shared milk when others lost their stash during hurricanes. We’ve cheered from across the country when each new baby brother or sister was brought safely into this world. We’ve been through it all. And we will continue to lift one another up in whatever ways possible as we navigate the journey of motherhood, together.

The greatest moments over the past two and a half years, as well as my darkest, have all been made better thanks to this group of women.

Do you have an online group that has made you a better parent? I’d love to hear about the special “village” that lifts you up.

"Someday, I'll miss this."
Parenting

“Someday, I’ll miss this.”

I recently stumbled upon a journal entry I wrote when Calvin was about two months old. He’s now nearly two and a half, and as his giggles ring through the hallways, and I hear him repeat the same question over and over, all I can say is: I was right. I do miss it, and someday I’ll miss this, too.

Someday, I’ll miss this.

That is my mantra as I learn to weather the storm of motherhood. It started when I was pregnant, when I’d be woken in the middle of the night by heartburn that felt like battery acid, and sciatic pain that jolted down my legs. The feeling of his kicks against my spleen and his head resting on my bladder. And the weight that piled on despite the promises I made to myself. I’d whisper to myself, “Someday, I’ll miss this”.

When I took a tumble at 36 weeks and ended up with a sprained ankle and a fractured elbow, and I was a waddling belly with a limp and a sling. But I knew even then, despite how miserable I felt, that one day I would wish it all back.

Now, as we’ve passed through the first weeks and months of his life, and I sit packing up newborn clothes that once hung off his limbs and are now to snug to pull over his head, I’m reminded again that my mantra holds true. I was right. I miss it. I miss it all. The frustration I felt while trying to breastfeed, the overwhelming fear I felt when he’d spit up and I was certain he would choke, and the first time when I fearfully strapped him into his car seat for an adventure that was just for the two of us.

And as we’ve entered the next phase of babyhood, I remind myself that someday I’ll miss this batch of trials and triumphs, too. I’ll miss his late night cries, that only I can sooth. The midnight car rides to ease him into a deep sleep. The worry that consumes my every decision and how it may impact his future.

Someday, I’ll miss this. Yes, even this. Because time moves at a different pace once you become a parent. That even the most challenging and frustrating aspects of raising a child are things that you will yearn for down the road. You’ll wish you could hit the rewind button and do it all again, even the not-so-fun stuff. Because the not-so-fun stuff makes the smiles, coos, and cuddles all worth it. And for me, thinking of missing those things is too much to bear.

Someday, I’ll miss this. But someday is not today. Today, I will revel in motherhood and all it has to offer and savor each moment that I’ll never get back.